It's important to note that your grand goal should not be phrased in such a way that hinges your happiness on becoming someone new. Such wording suggests that you only deserve to be happy if you become someone else. But what about you right now?
You already deserve to be happy. Focus on the here and now, take little steps toward your grand goal every day, and enjoy the process.
It can be challenging to know if you've chosen the right life direction, as well as to keep motivation going and enjoy the present moment. Try to stick with habits that can help you stay cheerful and joyful. Meditate, go for a walk while the sun is up, and express gratitude. These and other beneficial practices can help you feel more satisfied with life and focused on the present.